The Exams

Haihzzz. Its 3 days to the end of the prelude to another ordeal. It's hard to imagine. Time does zip past so quickly. SIghs n whines. At the start of the year, I told myself yes I have to PIA have to put in more effort in my studies. This is the SPM year. I am about to face one of the most important exams in my life. That was January. I looked at the calendar- 330 odd more days to SPM. What the heck! I keep giving myself excuses like Everyone's gotta play. All study n no play makes tshin a dull boy.......... In the end, all play n no work. Regrets & full of remorse. Now, the trials is almost close to its end. I look back at what I've done this year and I feel even more dissatisfied with myself. The trials has really burned away all my mental calories. I am mentally exhausted. I wonder how long will it take for me to regain control. That's probably why I have not being updating this for quite some time.

Nevertheless, my boredom was fast diminished as the political atmosphere here in Malaysia gets really tense or foul once again. Immaturity of some of the so-called community leaders and politicians surfaces yet again. Get a few brainless vociferous degenerates, a few courageous reporters and a few more dopes of blurness n desperateness armed with a shield of draconian law and you get what you get today in Malaysia not to mention the anticipation for change in this country.

Now, one place I would really love to be is where I was 3 months ago- on a slow moving wooden boat overlooking the vast ,perfectly beautiful skies ever with shades of blue, red, yellow and green, listening to the orchestra of the wild, the humming of the small electric motor, the splashing of the brownish yellow water of the Kinabatangan, and of course at intervals, mesmerized while peeping through a friend's binoculars to get a closer look of the almost perfect
2 π r square round red asses of the endangered male Proboscis monkey giving us a funny
face as he mates with his 7th or maybe 18th concubine on a tree branch overlooking us as he does his thing while we watch.

I still recall falling in love with that forest and I still long to just allow one's self to be amazed by how truly mesmerizing nature can be, and not through the pathetic KBSM Textbooks which tells us to love the forest and more bullshit where we will have to regurgitate that out in the SPM